Just to update

I just wanted to pop in and update. I haven't really been dating. I have emailed with a few people a few times but nothing more than just a few emails. No dates or anything. It sucks because I am lonely and would love to have someone in my life. But at the same time I have really hated dating and just don't want to go though anymore bad dates or deal with the crap of it. I really want to take a step back and not think about dating right now but it is hard when some nights I just get lonely and miss having someone in my life.