A Second Date

Last night I had my second date. Chad invited me over for dinner and mentioned me bringing a movie. G ended up cxling taking the kids this weekend so the kids went to my moms for the night. It was nice not to worry about what time I would have to be home. And also nice that I was able to keep my date.

We planned for me to be over at 630. Just as I was getting on the freeway I looked at the clock and realized it was 6:28. OOPS! I was late. :( I called him and he said not to worry. I got there and he met me out front and walked me back to his apartment. I love the complex. It was like something out of a fairytail. So beautiful with trees and greenery. I LOVED it! We got inside and he finished prepping dinner and we ate. After dinner he picked one of the two movies I brought and we watched it. All through the movie we both kept yawning so I wasn't surprised when he apologized afterwards and said he was too tired. He walked me back out to my car and give me a hug and said goodbye.

I repeat: He gave me a HUG and said goodbye. What does that mean?? What does it mean when a guy kisses you on a first date but only hugs you on a second??? :-/ I haven't heard from him since.


I really have to say I hate dating. :( It makes me crazy and self-conscious and self defeating. But not dating makes me realize how lonely I am. I just can't win.

UPDATE: I got this email from him tonight:
I've been thinking about it, and I think I've realized that I'm trying to move into dating a bit too quickly. I don't really do stress, and I was feeling oddly stressed about things...I think that with moving, wanting to make sure Max felt OK, easing Hazel into everything, and still needing to do a good job at work...I think I just need to slow myself down and focus on all of the changes. So yes, I think you're awesome and fun; but I think I'm getting ahead of myself, trying to date right now.
I guess that is that. (Have I mentioned I hate dating?)