Ryan or is it Steve?

I met Ryan/Steve on Craigslist. This was actually before I even started dieting and dating. It was even beofre the divorce was final. But I feel I should tell you about him since he did play a roll in where I am at. Last summer I was feeling lonely and so I posted on CL in the "strictly platonic" section (more on THAT later). I said I was a divorceing mother of 2 who was looking for a pen pal. That's right. No meeting, just chatting online. I got a flood of responses but really only chatted with a few of them. Ryan (Steve?) was one of them.

His email said Ryan (and had a last name that I can't remember). But in his email he said his name was Steve. Well, this was a little suspicious and was the cause of a few of our debates. But he was nice and I looked forward to his emails. I still to this day don't know if what he wrote to me was true or not. As is the trouble with online relationships. But I enjoyed out chats.

Even though I enjoyed our chats we had some issues. Call it trust issues if you want. He said he was a business travelor. At one point he was emailing me from Paris. I never knew if all of this was true and I have to say I was skeptical. He liked swimming. He liked reading. He wanted to help me with my weight loss goals; even had me start a blog with goals. And more than anything he wanted to meet.

Remember when I said I posted looking fro pen pals? Apparently he didn't. He pushed and pushed and finally when he realized I wasn't in a place to meet up with him he left. He didn't want ot chat anymore. He didn't want to just be a pen pal. And that was that. Ryan/Steve was gone.